Medical Update

Day 11 in St Vincents Hospital in Greenwich Village.
I'll be here at least two more days.

I've been out of the intensive care unit for three days now.
still requiring moderate doses of morphine, calcium, and faith.

With one parathyroid gland rebuilt,
the medical team, friends, and family wait patiently
for the refurbished parathyroid to get its foothold
and to produce calcium

I donate blood twice daily to the vampires
the calcium numbers hover between 6 and 7
(what, you ask? I have no idea...)
ever watchful for numbness in the hands and around the mouth
or abnormal muscle constricts

Finally, when that number reached 8, there was mention of going home
this was late Thursday. Then in dropped to 7.8 then 6.8 last night
placing me back on a calcium drip and more calcitrate

I miss my dogs--Buck and Maggie...
I miss showering, I miss not having bruises up and down my forearms
and a constant needle in a vein
I miss blue jeans, I miss restaurant food.
I miss meetings. I miss the Ledge.

but this is where I'm suppose to be right now
So I accept it.

so i continue to learn how to pray, to meditate, to appreciate.....

thank you for your amazing support during this difficult time.
I will stay focused on the bigger picture, and not the calcium number.